I wrote this text in the summer of 2018.

I played the below mp3 file (google translate version) out loud during a performance at Cirkulacija² in Ljubljana for my 2018 residency there.

The piece was also turned into a play and performed at the Craftory Workshop in London, summer of 2018 (photo>)
as part of the ‘Redact the Abstract’ series curated by Edward Sellers .
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here’s the box, honey
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here’s the box honey…. are you inside or outside? you see inside, you still have some options! you can place yourself in different places inside this box. it’s actually quite big, and there are a lot of other people there as well, so you won’t be lonely!

yes or no?

I mean outside, there just isn’t anything, you see! you can’t live your life like a hippie haha! you’ve gotta do something! it’s either in, or out and when you’re out, you just won’t really exist anymore, haha! you just don’t have any purpose, any value. you’re a loser then. why would you want to be a loser?

I’m sure you’ll feel at home at some point, when you’ve learnt all the rules of the box. you will find your place, I’m sure! and the box is good you know, it’s safe. it tells you how you can live here, between these walls. and you won’t have to mind the people in other boxes, for they are not like you. they are different. there will only be some few occasions when someone intrudes, breaks your walls. but you just dismiss them because they do not belong to your box. and then you come talk to me and I will repeat all the rules, and remind you that you are one of us. so I can talk to you in this way you see, because we are the same, we think the same. we are both in the same box, you see? how safe and easy it feels, right? I like it here, yes I really like it here. I belong here. I found my home here. I know who I am now. I am one of us. we are all together here. that’s what I call community! we are the good people - you know? we want this world to be good. we are not like the people in those other boxes - those thieves, snobs, all those idiots. so stupid they are. why aren’t they just like us? that’s just something I will never understand. you know, I think they’re all just a bit stupid really. they are just a bit more stupid than we are. we are better here, you know, because we know, what’s good, what’s right. all of that. we know it. we chose the right box. we own the truth here. that’s why this box rocks!

oh really you tell me that hmmm. maybe you are like this? maybe you are this and that? maybe I can name you like this? maybe you’re a bit like that? maybe you are this and this and this and this. maybe this is you? I think you could be that. I think this is what you are. yes. yes I know it now! I have a name for it. you are THIS. yes this is you. now we know what you are so it’s ok, it can still work in this box. cool. mhm now let’s talk about something else. oh look what I found today.

oh are you dating anyone at the moment? oh really, oh you really don’t feel like you need to? oh maybe you’re just not a romantic person. you don’t feel like you want to fall in love or don’t care if anyone falls in love with you? it’s ok, I accept that, there are people who are like that! it’s ok. don’t worry. you can still be in the box.

oh wait now you’re starting to sound a little bit too hippie here haha. hippie hippie! hahaha! you are so hippie! haha!! well it’s just that maybe you don’t know what you’re talking about, see, I do know. I read this and I read that. and this guy said that, and this guy is good. so I know what you mean, and you don’t have to worry. we all feel a little hippie sometimes and it’s ok. but of course, in the end, no one wants to live like a hippie. you’re not gonna live like a hippie in the end, hahah, that would be so hilarious. and you are not a hippie - I know you.

in that case, you can maybe even change the box a little if you want to. there is space for you to be yourself, I promise you, as long as you pay attention to the walls. you see, you don’t have to worry because we are open minded in this box. so there is always room for some new ideas, yes I tell you that, because we are very very open, it’s our rule! to be open. we have learnt that openness is important you see, so we have now decided that we are open people.

oh you tell me that well it’s obviously just because they are men! men act in this way. yes. hey you think I should download tinder again?

haha, what do you mean free? what does that even mean? you want to be free? haha. I don’t understand you. you obviously do not know how the world works. let me tell you how it works. you see, you are at home when you are stable. and you are stable here in this box. you’ve got everything you need to survive here, you should be grateful for that. and then you go on and fulfil the ideals of the box. so you get this kind of job, and you feel purpose. and then you do it well. and then you inform people how our good box works, and it is the better way of life. never forget to inform people about that, they need to learn. and that’s all you need to do in life. that’s your reason for existence, given to your hands. isn’t that great? you should be grateful that you have the box! don’t talk about freedom and such things, first of all that’s obviously hippie talk! and second of all, what does it even mean? tell me what it means, now.

oh so you don’t even really know what it means huh? you don’t have any explanation. where did you learn all of this? give me a name. where does your information come from? your ideas, where did you get them? who said that? oh yes of course I know of that existentialist philosopher, yea sure, it’s interesting, but anyway, you are not like him. he is some kinda unique soul, and he is dead now anyway. we live today you see, this is how we live today! it’s easy, you’ve got the meaning written right here. just follow this guy, he is sooo sick! I worship him. oh and I worship her too. this girl. look. omg she is also sooo good-looking. I love her because she is beautiful, but still says smart things. she is fighting for her rights to be what she is. look, this music video is sooo cool. I love her hair. yeah, she struggles you know, it’s not easy to be so judged. I support her, I’m on her side. she is fighting for the right reasons.


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what tha hell is going on here????